After about a week’s hiatus I have returned! I know you’ve missed me. What happened? Well, let me explain……
I don’t think I’ve written about being Bi-Polar. It’s terribly trendy at the moment and I hate to be the height of fashion so it’s something I tend not to talk about. Actually I have what’s known as Bi – Polar II or Cyclothymia which means I get all of the fun of the lows without the highs, and my ‘normal’ is what the average person on the street would register as unhappy. Even on meds the best I get is ‘Meh!’
Anyway, I hit the worst low I’ve had for a long time last week. By last Monday I was calling my husband at work, asking him to come home because I was worried I was going to do something to myself. By Wednesday I was self harming and by Friday it was like it had never happened. One of the big issues of cyclothymia is that the mood swings are so rapid and disabling.
So I’ve been resting for the past couple of days. I spent yesterday making jewellery and playing with my new phone. Today I have been exercising with my husband. That was so much fun! despite the fact that he is training for his 3rd London Marathon he struggled as much as me with the DVD we were following. Hooray! I felt better about myself because of it.
Then we went to the shops together, as a couple. We had some quality time which was really nice.
So here I am again. Tomorrow I can start writing about interesting things again.
For once I am looking forward to tomorrow!